i'm depressed. Too fat. I look horrible and face look like a pig . i wanna cut all the fat out.
I actually know how people feel when people wanna  relapse again. I will not give advice on recovery anymore.
If losing weight make them happy then go for it. I'm going crazy rite now. Sorryy for being a bitch.


i was with my aunt in the car today and she said i do not need to gain weight anymore.
Our culture don't know much about ED. Can't really blame her, but this make me really sad.

anyone1 in here recovered from ana and relapsed?
I wanna relapse again, but it is so hard because my body  so used to food now.

MY ANA HISTORY
Statrted out in 11th grade. I was down to 73 bl  in senior yr. Hospitalized for two mnths .
Beginning of my freshmen yr in college i was up to 120bl. I was sucidal and depressed.
By the second semester of my freshmn yr in college i was down to 89bl.
AFter 3 yrs  decided to recover
I recovered fpor 2yrs now. I eat around 1200-1500cal a day .

But  my weight keep going up and up-------------- soon i will be like a polar bear.
I don't wanna be suicidal again